Derrick

04:56 am - So over A&F

I'm really hating everyone and everything right about now. Well everyone except one person who just seemed to make my mood better. : )

But otherwise; I'm withdrawing from my english class, i got a 100 on my japanese midterm; work sucks, im making money; i paid my housing deposit, i overdrew my account $250 in the process....So life has its ups and downs.

I also realized that everybody was right when they said, Don't change yourself just so somebody will like you, it isn't worth it. I'm pretty sure that if I had come to realize how true this statement really is, I would've been a lot happier, a lot sooner. Nobody is worth changing who you truly are. You will find the one person that loves you for you.

That's some Dr. Phil bullshit is what that is. (but its true.)

Current Mood: serenity.

04:48 pm - New Room!

So last night Mark was here until....well I don't remember when, but I'm pretty sure it was later than 1, and we completely rearranged the room. It looks amazing. I love it sooo much, and I was very happy that Brendan did too, because I didn't tell him we were doing it. So I made him not come into the room for an obscene amount of time to an obscene hour, just to surprise him with it. I'm still really happy that he likes it. We're like brothers haha and NOT sexual brothers, like my dad seemed to think....hahaha. But the room does look beautiful and I love Mark for helping me do it! YAY!

Current Mood: bouncy

06:17 pm - my weekend

So the Berkshires were a lot of fun. I had fun being around my family which I haven't seen in about a month and a half haha. And then of course they all got drunk so I hit on the guy at the front desk. Then he said he had a fiancee back in Turkey, so I was like oh well, lost cause....and today we went to the Shaker village which was really cool, then it started snowing! It was really beautiful at first....then it started coming down like a blizzard with winds out of hell, then it wasn't too pretty. but it was still a lot of fun, and it was a free vacation so yay. and now i'm glad to be back. i also made candles at yankee candle, they're ridiculous. one is a purple turkey lol.
And now im glad to be back.
But im pretty sure everyone from Abercrombie hates me. At least the girls, and that's wierd, because at all my jobs, I'm friends with the girls. But eh w/e, I could use more guy friends lol

01:56 pm - Work

SOOOOO Last night was my first time working at A&F. It was good....I started off by making a table. I caught on quick on how to fold and shit, but I started off bad lol. Then I just put stuff away, which was also good because I got to know where stuff went and what all those numbers on the tags mean. While I was at work, Mario (the store manager) asked me if I wanted to work today, and I would've been an idiot to say no, so I said yes. And I worked today 7 - noon. That kind of sucked because I worked 6-11 last night, but it was fun. I hung up stuff and made another table before the store opened, then I just sort of walked around and cleaned stuff.....I'm going to really like working at A&F. I get paid to do minimal work. Sometimes none at all.......Masquerade Ball tonight! And the Bershires this weekend!
If you want to visit me at A&F the next time I work is Thursday 6-11 again. : )

Current Mood: cheerful

12:56 am - realization

I just realized it has been exactly 6 months since i posted on here haha

12:36 am - Renewing my lease

I have decided that since everyone on campus seems to use live journal, and i have unlimited access to it, i might as well.
Life has seriously been a rollercoaster ride of wierdness....some good, some bad. i wouldnt change any of it.....well....no, i wouldnt change anything. its all led to this point, and even though this point sucks, im still somewhat moderately happy with where i am. i would be more happy if i knew where i was going. and i had someone to go through it with me.

Current Mood: bleh.

10:07 pm - Vaca

Ok so this is how vacation went starting with good friday:

Friday: Went to see Scary Movie 4 with Chris, Meg (i dont know how to spell her full name haha Megan?), and Lisa in Enfield. Then we met up with 3 more of his friends, and I can only remember Kate's name haha but there was another guy and girl, who I would recognize if I saw, just not know their names...And so after that we were on our way to get icecream but me and chris stopped at a dunkin donuts and i met his friend Sophie and her bf who's name is also Derek (its spelt wierd, i know). Then we went and got ice cream. Then my dream came true and we drove around downtown Springfield. I'd never been to it and jason or somebody talks about it and i asked chris and then he sed something to his friends about it and they were like 'why?' and i was just like ... ive never been there lol... but that ended friday with the driving around downtown springfield haha

Saturday: I think I worked, I cant remember...
Sunday: Easter! I went to my grandparents in Bloomfield and we had dinner over there and it was good and fun
Monday: I don't think I did anything...
Tuesday: I went and picked up Chris and we went to Sophie's house and tanned. I met her mom, she's from the UK and has an awesome accent nd is funny haha Then I burned on the left side of my face and not the right because I was facing chris and sophie the entire time...Then I had to go to work and they laughed at me bc half of my face was burned and the other half was pale HA-HA
Wednesday: I went to Ashley's with Sean and we watched Saw II then my new FAVORITE movie "Drop Dead Gorgeous" it is my all time favorite movie, you should all watch it! Then sean came and slept over.
Thursday:Sean and I woke up and then i turned the tv on b4 either of us got up lol and we watched the music video to Ms. New Booty...if you get the chance, watch it at 8 in the morning as soon as you get up, its absolutely ridiculous. haha Then we went and got Marie and went to Manchester. We were going to go to Bickfords until she realized that it was in enfield not manchester. so we were going to get a breakfast buffet at Hometown Buffet, but it turns out they only do that on the weekends. Soo we had lunch at like 10 am haha and there all these old ppl, then marie told them it was 'sean lawsons' b-day. Entones, nosotros fuimos al cetro comercial (Buckland) and walked around, sean and marie played ddr, went to stores and stuff, tried on super expensive clothes, the came the credit card. If you ever go into a store, never trust an asain women named Lanping, who has you do the work on her computer to get you a credit card...it just isnt worth it...then we came home and i had to go back to manchester for work...
Friday:I dont believe i did anything at all...and saturday i worked, and sunday i worked... the weekend was plain haha but thats my story and im stickin' to it!
~derrick

Current Mood: calm...

09:17 pm - Hoping..

yeah so my one hope for this weekend: be better than last weekend! Even the good points of last weekend had some bad points lol...Hopefully it can be a perfect weekend and everything will go right...but seeing as i'm jynxed, that doesn't seem likely! I cant wait to see Kellum tommorow and don't really want him to leave next wednesday for greece...I'm going to be sooooo sad and lonely all over vacation. I won't be able to talk/see him for a week and a half! AH! lol well, people will just have to keep me occuppied, how I do not know. You figure it out lol.

Current Mood: content

08:47 pm - Best weekend ever!!!

Ok, so I think this was the best/ most intersting weekend of my life! lol So it started friday when Sarah, Brit, and I skipped (because of the concert). Sarah and Brit got me at i think around 10ish, and of course Sarah had to check her entire engine while at my house...so i helped her check the oil and then she spent about 5 minutes pouring what she thought was windshield wiper fluid (turned out to boat/rv antifreeze) into her car...she is the slowest pourer I have ever seen in my life...And so then we set off and got to the Manchester mall at about 10:45 and went to Ruby Tuesday's for lunch. I shared Brit's food because I'm poor. Well, I had food, but she made me eat part of hers lol And so we walked around the entire mall and I found shoes that I want to buy at 'Famous Footwear' and found out that I am a 31 32 pant size at AE which is good, because I never knew what size I was. And then we went to B&N after seeing the entire mall to wait for Kenny. While there we indulged ourselves in the most pornographic, homosexual novels EVER. It was just like porn, except in words, and it was funny lol. So then Kenny got there and we saw him and everything was good, and then we left for Worcester. We get up to Worcester about an hour and a half later (like 4:30 - 5 ish) and went to go park WELL... Sarah had saved $15 because that was supposedly how much it was to park...we get there and the sign says "$20" to park...So we start freaking lol. Brit pulls out $3 and that's all we have...$2 short of what we need. We go through all of Sarah's changed and find $1.20 in nickels and dimes lol and we are still 80 cents short. So Brit pulls out the tray full of pennies and we start counting lol and we have 80 pennies...So we go into this convenient store to ask if we can trade the 80 pennies for 80 cents. And the woman at the counter goes "I have enough change." And its like 'wtf? Its money! Just take it!' And so there's this poor guy standing there and he goes 'What do you need, a dollar?' and we're just like 'yeah...we don't have enough money to park' and he pulls out a dollar and gives it to us. Now I felt bad, but we were seeing that god damn concert. And so to sum up, you know you're poor when a poor man in a city gives you a dollar out of charity...
And so the concert was aweseome! the only thing i could complain about is the people we were sitting near. WIth the pricks/ho's in front of us, and the whiny girl who would not shut the fuck up and stop complaining about every single thing, it still was awesome. God I love the All-American Rejects and Fall Out Boy.
Saturday was the most eventful day ever. I started out by waking up at 9, getting ready for the day, which this time included getting one of my grandparents old vehicles to use for the day. So I went to work and worked from 1 - 5 and was way too distracted/ nervous for my date to focus and basically spent time just standing around doing nothing for a while lol and so at 5 I got out of work, got a smoothie from Maggie Moo's in the food court (they're really good) and was on my way to Kellum's. So we alll know how horrible I do with directions, I get lost in Stafford. So I got lost twice, asked for directions and found out I was going the right way all along. So then I get gas, and then something wierd happened, but that's not important haha. So then I start driving, and think I'm lost again. So I pull into this package store to ask for directions, and it was this young girl and this old guy who were both uber nice. ANd so they tell me that, once again, I'm heading the right way. So I go out to start my truck, and guess what? it won't start! So I go back inside and the girl is like, 'do you want to call AAA?' and i was like sure...and so now I'm upset because it's 6:40 and I should've been at Kellum's 35 minutes ago...So the lady says the guy will be there between then and 7:20 to jump my car and I was like '...yay...40 minutes of sitting in a package store...lol' but it wasn't that bad, the two people were very nice and we talked about how we're both bad with cars haha. And so at 7:10 the guy shows up, who was really nice and had a southern accent. So he gets there and has me turn the key and goes 'uh...that's not the battery...' so he does all this stuff to the car just to tell me I have two options, 1) have the car towed tonight 2) have the car towed tommorow. I take option two since i don't know what my grandparents want me to do. And the guy is like, 'well do you have someone who is going to pick you up, or somewhere to go?' and i was like on the verge of tears because I'm like out in I-don't-know-where Springfield and my family isn't home and Kellum doesn't have a car and I don't have time on my cell. So i was just like 'I'm just going to walk to my friends house.' and he was like 'where does he live?' and i told him and he goes 'well if it was summer i would say you could walk it, but its freezing out' and i was like 'well...im a runner and like to run so it should be quick (lie)' and he goes 'ah hell, i'll give you a ride.' and i was like 'really??' and he goes 'sure, why not' and i was like praise God Halleujah (<-sp?) And so he brings me to Kellum's and I meet him and I have an awesome time, and I end up meeting two of his friends who remind me a lot of Brit and Sarah. And so I end up staying the night so my mom can pick me up the next moring. And then that night I guess we started a relationship!! YAY!
So Sunday my mom picked me up at 9 and I went home. Then my dad and I went to go get the truck, and it started like nothing had happened to it (figures) and then of course i got my dad and i lost 3 times trying to find it lol...But then I made pizza's with my dad and all was well. So overall, it was the best weekend ever!

Current Mood: ecstatic

02:44 pm - OMG

OMG I completely forgot to tell Mrs. B. that I'm not going to be at drama tonight...I was just about to write about my night and that little tid bit popped into my head lol...oh well, she'll just have to deal with it. I put on my conflict sheet the days I work, so she should know...if she only looked at the conflict sheets. OK so things are almost back to normal for me...almost...I'm really bored and know that it probably isn't going to be a good night because I am pessimistic, so if I believe that it's going to be a bad night, there won't be any surprises.

Current Mood: crazy

07:33 pm - Getting through it...

Ok, so despite all the shit that going on, I'm getting through pretty well. I'm starting to like people that I didn't talk to or really know that well, and I'm starting to like them more and see how awesome they are. Basically the only thing getting me through this week so far is 1) The concert friday 2)Saturday after work with Kellum, and what will be getting me through the month is the end of the month, thank you to my 6th period special friend lol But even though all these horrible things keep happening, all I can do is laugh, laugh the laugh of a person who has nothing to turn to but his true friends, and cake...yet I have no cake. I believe this Mean Girls quote fits here...

Crying Girl: [reading from paper] I wish we could all get along like we used to in middle school... I wish I could bake a cake filled with rainbows and smiles and everyone would eat and be happy...
[about to cry]
Damian: [shouting from back] She doesn't even go here!
Ms. Norbury: Do you even go to this school?
Crying Girl: No... I just have a lot of feelings...
Ms. Norbury: Ok go home...
[girl walks off stage]
Ms. Norbury: Next!

Current Mood: content

11:05 pm - People are stupid

Ok, so people are stupid. Argh, I don't even know how to say what I want to. It's like, don't just say something about somebody becuase you THINK its true. Like the person today who said I was wearing cover-up, and their reason for saying it was...."oh, i thought you were." That is one of the stupidest reasones for saying something. What makes it even worse is that I stick up for this person all the time, and they don't even know it. And then for them to go and say something like that, which now has the entire school thinking/asking me if I wear cover-up, WHEN I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT THAT IS, is just retarded. Its like, if you think I'm wearing cover-up, why not ASK me, instead of telling people that I am. ARGH people are so stupid! That's the last time I try to stick up for/ defend that person when other people are talking/ asking about them.

Current Mood: annoyed

02:47 pm - Week end

Ok, so friday wasn't that great, I got woken up at 8 by the dog and only got 4 hours of sleep...ugh And then I had to get Lily and bring her here, but she didn't get along with Cody, so I asked grandma if she would take care of lily, so she's been next door all weekend lol
So then friday night I went with Emily, Sean, Karaline, and Jeff to see "the hills have eyes" long story short, one of the scariest/most disgusting movies I have ever seen and would swore never to see it again. I'm going to see it with Ashley next weekend I think haha So then I got home at like 1:15 and was really freaked out and ended up watching something and falling asleep on the couch. Then at 3am Cody woke me up because I forgot to put him in his cage, so I put him away and went back to bed.
I awoke at around 11:15 on sat. morning, and then at around 11:45 Chad called me and I left to go pick him up...A 20 minute drive turned into a 50 minute drive because I got lost twice *surprise* But then we came back here and literally sat on the couch for 6 hours. The only time we got up was to make waffles. We watched 'the incredibles' 'eurotrip' and 'sin city.' 'sin city' was the only one i hadn't seen, and i thought it was really good. if I could chose two words to describe it, they would be "genital mutilation"...There's a lot of it haha So then jason got here for the end of the movie and we all just hung out. Then Sean arrived and eventually sarah. but before sarah and ashley, diane, and george got there, jason, chad and i had an adventure of our own which was interesting to say the least haha Then we got back and everybody was here and we threw in the movie and I made food and then kara sean and i danced and it was a good time. Sean, Jason, Sarah, and Chad ended up sleeping over and then went home this morning...After Chad cleaned the ENTIRE kitchen...I felt kind of bad, but he wanted to. And when I say 'clean' i mean the entire kitchen was spotless, he is the most amazing kid ever, i love him lol and then i ended up bringing him home, and its amazingly easy to get there because from my house to his, you literally only drive on three roads...I was absolutely amazed haha
But now I'm afraid I must go...wow, I wrote a lot, but I had a great weekend! It started off ehhhh but ended yay! haha

Current Mood: yay!

04:25 pm - emily makes me emulate emotions of energy and e-happiness

Emily Luksha, you know how to make a guy happy!

Failure to Launch tonight with Emily, Karaline, Jeff?, and Sean!

Current Mood: yay!

03:37 pm - my day off

I was all excited to have the day off but here's how it went, with an explanation of why it was bad:
I wasnt planning on staying home, but i went to bed at 4 this morning (lol thanks tan) and then at 8 cody woke me up bc he had to go to the bathroom, i was mildly annoyed, but i figured, ill just go back to bed...well, at 10 he woke me up again because he had to go to the bathroom again, after doing so in his cage after i brought him out...that made me mad...So i just put the blanket out and just finished washing it finally. But cody is the biggest pain in the ass ever! Lily was not this bad when she was a puppy! Granted she was like 2 pounds and he's like 10, but still! the biggest, most retarded puppy i have ever had to deal with! so basically all day i've felt sick from lack of sleep, and i have wanted to choke cody lol and then i check the voicemails at my dad's house and had one from my grandma because i accidently locked her out of our house so she couldn't put lily back...so i called apologized and went to go get lily, she said lily could stay with her but i was like 'oh its ok, im going to let her play with cody' and shes like 'ok' so i brought lily here...big mistake, like i said before, cody is the biggest most retarded dog ever, and lily is the smallest smartest dog ever. long story short they didnt get along and i went through 1/2 an hour of hell before bringing lily back to grandmas and she's staying there tonight haha...but then i came back, made lunch and watched kung fu hustle, and now im happy and feeling better. Thank you foreign films, thank you.
ps, it can only get better because im going out with emily tonight!

Current Mood: ehhh...

02:11 pm - drama

wow so all i'm basically using this lj for is bitching lol ok so i soooooooooooo dont feel like going to drama for 7 hours. and i figure whats the use? im gonna be inelligible anyway, so im not doing the muscial. and kara, brit, and marie arent doing the musical anyway, so the only reason id be doing it would be because sean is doing it, and if the others arent, then chances are he wont, so theres no point in me doing it! ughhhhhhhh this sucks........ i dont wanna do it........... ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh well gtg die for 7 hours!

Current Mood: ughhh

03:26 pm - since ive decided to use this

I've decided to use my lj more often since i can. I'm basically going to just start ranting now about how shitty this weekend has turned out to be. I was SUPPOSED to go out to the movies this afternoon with lyndsey stein, nickianthony, and their friend nikki. But oh wait, this morning at 930 my mom wakes me up to tell me that I cant go out because I have to help my dad split wood. OMG i told them about this last week, and of course it HAS to be today, it cant be tommorow, no. it has to be today at the same time i was supposed to go out. And i reaaallly wanted to see Memoirs of a Geisha, and i heard it was really good. now i have to wait untill it comes out on video, and movies are a lot better in the theater. And then Sean calls to see if i was still going with him diane and marie to Big Y to get pizza, which i completely forgot about. and i cant do that either. And THEN friday i was supposed to go to kylee's for movie night, but then my brother had to be the biggest fucking retard he could and 'ran away' which turned out to be him going to the movies with his friends. so i spent hours out looking for him, wasted half a tank, and didnt get to go to movie night. I hav no job, so i cant afford gas, so i just wasted 20 bucks on the fucking retard and now have enough gas to drive to school for 3 days before i have to ask my parents to borrow more money. and seeing as i owe my mom 200 for insurance and my dad 170 for a starter, which they keeping hanging over my head, im not really in the mood to ask for money. all i would like to say is thank you.

Current Mood: cranky

11:28 pm - yay!

Yay!!! now that i have my laptop and wireless internet ill actually be able to like keep this thing updated lol well idk who will read it but now when ppl ask ill be able to be like, 'yes. yes i do have an lj'. hmmmmm what to write about, what to write about...well i have a crush on ***WE NOW INTERUPT THE REGULARLY SCHEDUALED PROGRAM FOR AN EMERGENCY SYSTEM ALERT TEST...THANK YOU, THE TEST IS NOW OVER*** it feels good to finally admit that i had a crush on him...not that nobody knew it lol im sure even he knows that im barkingly mad in love with him lol

09:43 pm

wow i havnt written in this in a long time lol since spanish...ahhh i miss profesora lol. omg i hav a job woo hoo woo hoo everybody must come visit me at the super big y in tolland, it opens Aug. 4th! and if u wanna see me training u can come to the mansfield big y lol. y they wont let me train in stafford is beyond me lol. ne way yea wow its been a while. lol

10:39 am - my stalker